A letter to my 14 year old self

Well hey there it’s me Lauren ,

First of all I would like to say that your looks fucking amazing but the blonde highlights are going to destroy your hair, then the pink will fade and you will be left with some hella damaged hair which will require a lot of love and attention if you want it to back to its full health. I am writing to tell that you are still standing and not a lot has changed really, in the future you still listen to the same music and still possess an unhealthy obsession with Harry Potter.

Secondly I would like to tell you not to worry Lauren , don’t worry about not liking the same music as your friends embrace it , because you’re different and it is beautiful just like you are. Lauren you are loving and caring, please don’t worry about not having any friends because eventually people shine through who really care about you.  Be your own crazy self, you will manage just fine.

I would like to warm you Lauren, you’re going to meet boy, you’re going to love him, he’s going to love you but he is going to break your heart, you will cry however, you will be strong and you will make it through. You never needed him anyway, you need to stick at things when they get tough, you will make it through. I hate to tell you this but you will thing you have found ‘the one’ several times and it never turns out to be, I’ll give you a call when I find him.

Lauren you also need to stop crushing on Edward Cullen he is not a good model boyfriend in fact he is a despicable example of a boyfriend so you need to stop reading the bloody twilight books and get on with your life. There are far better books out there I promise you; you are going to love them.

This leads me to your obsession with reading, don’t throw all of your books away, you may hit a huge reading slump but you will fall in love with reading again.

That music degree Lauren? Forget it music will always remain your first love but it will not be your career, work hard music will play a huge part in your life but other subjects will shine though and you hate for History will turn into a love believe me! Your singing voice will develop to the point that you can sound like a Disney princess with very little effort, it’s an excellent party trick!!

Lauren I know that you are in a rough place at the moment but I am telling you that it gets better. Those cuts will heal, you will relapse again but it is going to be okay you will get better and things will improve.  You will learn to love yourself don’t worry about your weight, your looks or style be yourself make the most of opportunities you are doing well , keep your head down , work hard in school because it won’t last forever . Your school days will not be the best of your life but you still need to enjoy them. Spend less time on tumblr and get shit done (but tumblr will pay a huge role in your life so don’t abandon it completely).

That’s all I’ve got time for, stay true to you , love yourself. 

Lauren

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At the moment I am reading: Library of Souls by Ransom Riggs